You're in shock, then there is denial, you may be angry / you bargain, there is resignation, and then acceptance.
One thing that Nina did reassure me of what that even though this dream / illusion had died I was not a failure, I was not letting God down.
You may be asking at this point - what am I talking about? What died? What is going on?
I would just prefer not to get into specifics - the specifics are not important.
What is important is to fully understand that none of us are perfect. I am sure in one time of our lives or another we have had a dream that we have held onto... hoping, praying that the person, the situation, life would change. We keep trying to change ourselves, the situation, our feelings... but nothing... only to go right back to square one. But I've been through this cycle several times that once again I find myself at the stage of denial... I truly can't believe this is happening.... WHY??? I should have... and the countless questions I drive myself crazy with.
Life is not easy... its okay to have a dream die but what is important is to move on... and begin again with a new dream and not wallow in regret or self pity but to look upward to let God heal our hearts and hope once again.
We need too remind ourselves like David did that Hope is Real. It comes from God.
"But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you." Psalm 39:7
"Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God." Psalm 42:11
"Show me the path where I should walk, O LORD; point out the right road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you." Psalm 25:4-5
"No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame," Psalm 25:3
"But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love," Psalm 33:18
"Remember your promise to me, for it is my only hope." Psalm 119:49
I need to trust God. What does God say about who you are and what His will is for your life? Don't go by your feelings. Instead we should remind ourselves that God only has plans for us that are good. Jeremiah helps us remember what God has to say about us. "For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
"Show me the path where I should walk, O LORD; point out the right road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you." Psalm 25:4-5
"No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame," Psalm 25:3
"But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love," Psalm 33:18
"Remember your promise to me, for it is my only hope." Psalm 119:49
I need to trust God. What does God say about who you are and what His will is for your life? Don't go by your feelings. Instead we should remind ourselves that God only has plans for us that are good. Jeremiah helps us remember what God has to say about us. "For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
